A reminder from my Lucky Charm...

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar & seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous & exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power." - Alan Cohen

56 days off the Bar...

...and I'm "jonesin' for my fix". TSNY has it right - "Forget Fear. Worry about the Addiction." Or we came up with this good line last night - "Trapeze! Cheaper than cocaine and a much better high!"

Even though I still can't fly for another 4 whole weeks (Good Grief!)...it's Thursday night and I don't have too many more Thursday nights left in this town. So I went back...to be with my friends...at our little rig in Brooklyn. (The pics are repeats but fond memories of past Thursday classes.)

I've never been a very good spectator. I thought it was going to be too hard to bear - being so close and having to sit by and just watch; smelling the chalk, hearing the calls, the feel of the Bar and tasting the adrenaline. But the exact opposite was true...being there laughing with my friends, witnessing their progress, and making plans for the day we all can fly together again...elevated my mood like very few things can.

I learned something tonight...being with my circus family and just being around Trapeze - something that I absolutely love - is enough to refill my strength reserves and send my spirit soaring again!

Cinderella for a day...

It was a magical Saturday.

Celebrating together on happy occasions and supporting each other through life's difficulties is just what friends do.

This morning I had the great fortune to participate as a coach in another ZG flight out of LaGuardia. I know I say this EVERY flight but we had an awesome group of flyers today. And the ZG team once again rose to the occasion. It brings me great joy to contribute, in my small way, to this experience. My sincere thanks to those who make this possible.

Later in the day, I was tremendously honored to join dear friends Paul & Kathie in celebrating the wedding of their son Jordan to his beloved Robyn. The Bride and Groom looked blissfully happy. Kathie was stunning, absolutely radiant and Paul's beaming smile was a joy to witness. It was a beautiful ceremony, the reception was exquisite and it was wonderful to spend the evening catching up with dear Mercer friends, Mark, Sharon, Mindy and Roseann.

We took this special shot of Roseann, Paul and me; walking advertisements for Triple Impact Coaching. With Nordine's guidance, fit and mindful living has become a part of each of us. After seeing we three "Ambassadors of Fitness", Groom Jordan even commented he's "gotta get on the Nordine plan"...

A quick shot of me and Roseann...

I really enjoyed catching up with Mark and his wife Sharon. They were very surprised to hear of my relocation news but both were wonderfully supportive; as I knew they would be. You may recall, Mark was the Managing Director who hired me 15 years ago. And throughout the years he has been a tremendous advisor, mentor and friend to me (and to so many others). He is doing great; even danced a little. It is so nice to see Mark and Sharon together. Like Paul & Kathie and now Jordan & Robyn...these amazing couples are proof that the "great love story" really does exist. Here's Sharon, Mindy, me and Mark...

(Note the beautiful centerpieces.)

And here's the evening's "Power Shot"; Mindy, Paul & me...

This photo is one of my favorites, "Paulie's Girls"...

Mindy, Paul, me & Roseann

On this amazing Saturday, I got to spend my day wearing a flight suit; floating in microgravity with an incredible group of flyers and my wonderful ZG friends. As if that weren't enough, I got to spend my evening in a brand new pretty dress and "Bling" (don't tell Dr. C I took off my wrist guard for this event); sharing in the great joy of my dear friends. Throw in a trapeze bar and I'd swear I was in Heaven!

In days preceding and in all the hours of Saturday, I was profoundly aware of and grateful for the blessings bestowed on me today. I left the reception shortly before 12:00AM; quite certain that come midnight I would turn into a pumpkin.

It was a magical day...Living my Bliss with Laughter in my Heart!!!

My horoscope for Saturday, November 17, 2007

I've a full day ahead; surrounded by my friends and doing the things that I absolutely love. While I'm not one to take much stock in horoscopes, today's made me stop and take notice.

"A lot of changes are coming to your life very soon, so this is a day to take another long look at what you've got going on now -- and appreciate it! Living in the moment is a difficult thing to do in this age of fast-moving information and future plans. But you'd be cheating yourself big time if you didn't at least take an hour out of your day to reflect on your life and thank yourself for making the choices and efforts it took to get you where you are."

Starting this day off with Gratitude...

Girl Talk...

After nearly three months, my dear friend and "Sister by Heart" Judy and I FINALLY found ourselves with a free evening to catch up. So much has happened since we last saw each other and I've missed our Sunday night post-trapeze IFW chats terribly. I can tell her anything and she can do the same - unconditional support, no judgements and there's never a doubt that what is said between us, stays between us. She is an amazing spirit and survivor. I am so grateful to have her friendship bless my life.

We took an hour (and a glass of vino) for each of the three months apart to share the stories we'd both accumulated. Our successes and our disappointments. Our inspirations and our heartbreaks. Our humiliations and our moments touched by great kindness. The highs feel so much greater and the lows are somehow easier to accept when viewed through the eyes of a true friend.

By the end of the evening our cheeks were sore from smiling, our jaws were achy from gabbing and our eye makeup was a mess from laughing so hard we cried.

Another wonderful memory created...

GROUNDED!!!!

The good news is that I got to see my awesome orthopedist Dr. Callahan, Medical Director of the Women's Sports Medicine Center at Hospital for Special Surgery. The bad news is this was not a social visit. She grounded me off the Trapeze Bar until further notice.

What I thought was just a sprain from a bad catch during my last SHOW class turned out to be a bit worse. It seems I've got a crack in my wing and one the cables (i.e., ligaments) keeping my infrastructure aligned tore from the bone and rolled up into my forearm "like a cheap window shade". (To quote Dr. Callahan.)

It looks gross and hurts as bad as it sounds! I took this so Angie can "kinda" see the freakish mass of tissue...


Thank Heaven for Advil. I made the mistake of forgetting to take it last Sunday while in New Mexico and sure paid the price. By afternoon, I was miserable but didn't realize the cause. A firm handshake finally brought me to tears.

I know what you're thinking...our Jen?...TEARS?

Yup! Good friend Mike and new pal Nick can attest. I tried to be tough but in the end I cried like a little girl! They took good care of me...patiently understanding that like a wild animal, when I'm hurting I need to go off by myself until I am strong again. (Or in this case, until the Advil kicked in.) They let me go alone but followed close behind to ensure I got back to the hotel safely. It's nice to have friends who would do that. I am touched and truly grateful for their kindness.

Can't fly so I'm off to Grasshopper's class for some intense cardio...I'll keep you posted.

Family Visits are the Best!

It's so nice to have family in town!!!!! Angie, Jeff and their boys came to visit this week. Technically we're not "blood family" but as I've gotten older I've come to realize that genetics aren't the only criteria for family. I've known and counted on Jeff since the 9th grade. I'm so blessed that he met and chose to marry Angie and we became best friends too! They are my people...

When asked if they wanted to go to a water park or to visit Auntie Jen in New York City, without missing a beat Benjamin and Cameron both said "Visit Auntie Jen, Murray and Ira and the Statue of Liberty!!!"

They arrived later than expected Wednesday night so I met up with everyone for breakfast at the hotel Thursday morning. I was really nervous that Cameron wouldn't remember me because the last time I saw him, he was only 3 months old. (And we had that whole diaper fiasco!) Here are some photos from my last visit to their house.

The moment I entered the dining room...there was Benjamin, arms waving high in the air "Hi Auntie Jen! It's Auntie Jen! Hi Auntie Jen!". And I looked over to see the biggest smile on Cameron's face and heard his sweet little voice say "Hi Auntie Jen!" It was music to my ears. They absolutely stole my Heart! Again!

We gobbled up breakfast and made a quick stop in the room. Cameron and Benjamin, now ages 3 1/2 and 5 3/4 respectively, are big fans of Rocket Racing and they were so excited to receive their official Rocket Racing patches and pendants. They proudly wore their pendants all weekend. We had "Mission Briefings" before every outing and the boys behaved like good little future Rocket Racing pilots!

First on our agenda was Lady Liberty. Here's Ben, Cam and me riding the subway down to Battery Park. During the ride, Ben explained to us how bad it is to litter.

Here are a few shots of Ben taking in the sights...

Cameron was a little camera shy. Everyone got a bit sleepy on the Ferry back to Manhattan and Cameron napped in my arms; drowning my shoulder in little boy drool. Needless to say, I was in Heaven. It's not often that I have little ones around and I am a total pushover for these guys.

We took another subway ride up to Grand Central Terminal (GCT). Ben and Cam told me all about how the animals escaped from the zoo and ran around GCT in the film Madagascar. Here we are in GCT. Cameron didn't want his picture taken so he hid behind me.

I had to take a few business calls so we split up for a couple hours and agreed to meet at our little rig in Brooklyn. It was Thursday and I had my SHOW workshop. Here's me up on the Board with Jeff S. and Maryam climbing up...

Words can not express how much it meant to me to have Ang, Jeff & the boys there to watch me fly and to meet my trapeze family. It filled me with joy to be surrounded by people I love, who love me back and allow me to share my passion. Ben and Cam quickly became the darlings of the evening. Flirting with all the ladies; they learned every one's name and cheered us all. It was delightful! Jeff took video and in it you can hear them all cheering.

In this video of my Swing OOL, you can hear Ben counting the number of times I go back and forth. He was my toughest critic and an absolute joy.



You might notice that the tempo of my Swing OOL is getting much better. Thanks to the feedback from Randy in the last class, I am finally finding balance in my swing. In fact at one point, I was flying SO HIGH...I scared myself. I was afraid I would hit my head on the rafters like Dino once did. A silly notion I know, but I got really high! It felt effortless and I loved every moment.

Next I threw my Split with Half-turn to the mat. I'm working on taking my Split OOL and need to convince my instructors that after I release, I will turn and fall to my back safely. This skill is hard to practice in lines , as we often get tangled up, but I'm finally getting it. This is the best one I've done so far...



Taking Allegra's place tonight, Ben kept the class moving by reminding me of my place in line and he always made sure I chalked up before each turn. On to my Cutaway practice. This one looks really funny; like I land on my face and "eat mat". Actually, this is a skill we learn on the trampoline. It's called a chest drop and I don't fall on my face at all. If I were in a net, I'd bounce right back up.



Time for catches and I threw Randy my Split. We got really high in the Apron and I almost made it back to Jeff S. on the Board...



But when I got there I didn't like being back in his arms so I decided not to let go of the bar.

On our next catch Randy and I made a solid lock on the right but couldn't connect our left. We didn't release in time and flew into the Apron twisting together from one arm. A very bad and painful thing to do. I cranked my shoulder and sprained my wrist. It was a freak accident. If we hadn't had such a solid lock on the right, we likely would have immediately called "no catch" and released.

Living my Bliss...sometimes I'm going to get hurt. I was more scared than anything but quickly climbed back up the ladder, threw Randy my Split again and round tripped it back to the Board. This time I made sure I had enough force out over the Board to easily remount without needing Jeff S. to scoop me up in his arms. (It's a trust thing!)

A future trapeze artist...here's Ben on the low bar.

What a fun night! We took a car back to the City for dinner and said our good nights!

We met up again around Noon on Friday...hung out at the M&M store, ate $10.95 grilled cheese sandwiches, walked the streets in search of the Nascar store and ended up at Nintendo. After playing around a bit, it was time to head back to the hotel and pack up the boys for a sleepover at Auntie Jen's house.

Ben and Cam were excited and ready for the adventure. No hesitation at all. Jeff looked forward to a night on the town with Ang. Ang was a little worried Ben and Cam would misbehave. And me? Well, not having spent much time with little kids, I wavered between keeping to my plan of activities or putting the apartment in lock down and wrapping the boys in bubble wrap for the next 16 hours.

I took a deep breath, opted for the former and everything turned out GREAT!!!! Just a few minor mishaps...

Cameron rolled off the chaise and landed in Murray & Ira's water dish; getting soaking wet. He now tells people he went swimming at Auntie Jen's house in New York City.

Even though he was told not to, Benjamin tried to swing on the "Fire pole" and knocked it down with a big, loud thunk.

Despite Ben & Cam bringing them toys and treats, poor Murray was so freaked out by these "little people", he spent nearly their whole visit hiding in the closet. And sweet Ira came out for treats but would race back inside the chaise whenever Cam would chase after him. Cam would say..."Auntie Jen, I saw Ira and he tried to bite me so left him alone."

And that was just in the first half hour!

Fortunately we found our vibe and all major crisis were averted. We took a field trip to the grocery store where the boys got to pick their favorite ice cream and all the toppings they wanted. (A tradition I learned from my Grandy.) We all got into our PJs and made big ice cream sundaes for dessert!

The biggest hit of the night was playing with the Rocket Racer model. These little guys couldn't keep their hands off it.

Cameron always kept the Rocket Racer on its stand and asked to have his picture taken with it on every turn.

And Benjamin, he made up elaborate race scenarios...



It was time to settle down and I told the boys they could select a DVD to watch for a little while. They picked Return of the Jedi. Now before anyone starts questioning my parenting skills (or lack thereof) both Ben and Cam were able to successfully describe the first half hour of the movie with great accuracy. So I knew Jeff and Ang had let them watch it before. Cameron couldn't contain his excitement. Hear him say "Return of the Jedi" and "Thank you TV!"



Here's Ben watching the movie...

We watched about 15 minutes and then it was time for bed. I had one last surprise for the boys. I brought the universe into my little NYC apartment and we all laid down on our backs to count the shooting stars...

The boys were so good and went right to bed. I told them that if they were really quiet, Murray and Ira might come out to sleep with them. The kitties did venture out to sniff but then they would spook and run back into hiding. We all had a good night's sleep and Cameron was the last to get up Saturday morning.

When he finally did, he found that Ira started to feel more comfortable. Here's Cam petting Ira.

Angie and Jeff arrived Saturday morning and it was time for them to get ready to leave. But not before a few more poses with the Rocket Racer...


I don't know if I'll ever make a very good mommy or not but according to Benjamin and Cameron, I'm getting really good at this Auntie Jen gig.

Thank you for coming to visit. From the bottom of my heart, it meant the world to me to have you here.